| what do you do? +when the people closest to you end up being the fakest. wow, its been a while. hasent it? still alot has changed... 411-
+my stomache problem is pre-cancer...
+my bestfriend stabbed me in the back im pretty sure she did stuff w/ my ex.
(quotes/word graphics pertaining this would be sooo helpful)
+i moved out of my moms.. (hardest thing ever!)
+im going to college aug.24 yay me..
+still no car
+still no job
i need a change.. help! 
*note: he has helped me thru so much.. i have no idea where id be w/o him. and i know thats so cliche. but seriousy. |
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| ++ i know its been forever.
and alot of things have changed. Andrew and i are not even on speaking terms. alot of things have gotten fucked up in the past 4 months.
heres some things that have happend -My cousin Brian died of a heroin overdose 1.29.09
-i was dating a guy named devin for a week, then when brian died he couldnt handle it and broke up w/ me.
-i ran away from home, spent 2 days @ my dads, away from school, away from work, away from my mom.
-i currently have a boyfriend, who i am madly inlove w/ his name is aaron. :)
-i started eating alot, when brian died weighed 185, then i randomly got really sick, and lost 20lbs in 3 weeks.
-every time i try to eat something i get sick. (im going to the doctors tomorrow.)
-i made the choice to move out of my moms house (6.14.09) thats a big step for me.
-oh i got accepted to JCC, my mom hid my acceptance letter... i had to call to find out. but other then that, thats about it. my grades are looking amazing. (: 
my hubbyy. isnt he cute? (yes, i know i look white.) |
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| +++I hurt so fucking badd..
-Me and andrew broke up..
well at least until he comes back from the airforce... im so numbb.. until i think about it.. then i cry uncontrollably.
it happened two days ago.
the only time i was really happy was when i was workingg.
(:
i originally worked 3-7 but i asked if i could work until 11.
and man they worrkkkeddd me..
(:
i loved it. b.c i didnt have to think about the situation.
i didnt have time to.
i mopped every square inch of that place.
(:
te he.
++ On the brighter side..
i only ate 300 calories yesterday.
i felt like if i did.
id throw it up..
i woke up this morning so light headed.
idk why.
but i work again
tonight 4-7
(:
i love it.
-im getting my new phone today.. maybe. if the mail comes today.
huff.
i still feel like crying.
..and i woke up crying..
ughh.
someone help me.
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| ++ ugh its been foreverr..
so i stopped my diet. thing. whatever it is.
im starting it back up today..
yay for me.
(hungry)
++Christmas-
was great.
i got:
-Ipod Touch
-North Face gear.
-18k gold bracelet.
-uncle j got me an 'S' necklace like the one he got me when i was 7 cept this ones real.
-boots.
-nike air jordans.
-money.
-peace sign stuff.
and yeahh...
++ News on me
-my doctors putting me on the pill
Question: is it true you gain weight being on it?
-my phone broke. i getting a new one soon
-my mom got a new dog. its a Rotty. it eats everything.
++ News on andrew
-we breaking up in 2 weeks.
it sucks that we're winding down.
i love him so much.
all i do is cry..
i want to wait for him so bad.
but idk if i can.
any quotes on leaving..
lemme know.
im off to work.
=/
comments would greatly be appreciated.
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| ++ sorry i havent updated.
its not like you guys comment my anyways..
++the news.
-somethings wrong with my stepdad he keeps going to the doctor. no one tells me anything.
-andrew and i broke up... for like an hour.
-i still weigh 175. (ive been working on it.. still)
-god has become my new bestfriend
-i got a 2.4 gpa
-i got a job at mcdonalds
-my uncle came home from the hospital.
and thats about it.
maybe if i get some comments ill update more..
who knows anymore
everything seems fucked.
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